It's Been a Month Already?!?!

Well I haven't been in much of a writing mood lately. I have not been getting enough sleep. This month has flown by. I finished my psychology and history classes at the end of last month. I got B's in both classes. Yay me!!! I just finished my english class last week. I got an A in that class, again, Yay me!!! And I thought english was going to be my worst class. I still have my math class left. It ends August 25th, and my new classes begin August 28th. Doesn't give a girl much time to regroup.
I still plan on spending my Tuesdays and Thursdays with the Mari-Jane and family. I wouldn't give up the time I spend with them for the world. I think I am most happy when I am around them. But there are times that are my saddest. Like when I look at Tristan and Alexa, they have grown so much in the last 8 months. Why isn't Kierra here to see them grow?
I don't feel like Brenda anymore, a piece of me has been taken, never to be returned. I don't know if it's from a lack of sleep or if I am just loosing my mind, but I cry so easily these days. I can't even turn on the radio without hearing a song that reminds me of Ki, I just start balling.
Well on a better and much cuter note. Thursday night I was watching the twins and Hunter for few hours. I put the twins to bed at about 9. At 9:45, Alexa starts crying. So I go in there to check on her, and she won't even look at me. I sit on the floor and ask Alexa if she wants a hug, still no response. Tristan then taps me on my shoulder, so I turn around and ask him if he would like a hug. He shakes his head yes. I give him a hug and kiss him on the cheek, he then kisses me on my cheek! I was shocked, at the time I thought I was just one of the lucky few. But turns out, I was the first person to get a kiss from Tristan!!!
Also my mom agreed to let me have Max. I am excited to bring him home. Hunter told me Thursday that he is glad that Max is going to my house because that meant he could see Max still whenever he wanted.

You May Not Know

Many of you may not know this, but last year I tried out for the Jacksonville Jaguars to sing the National Anthem at the October 12th game. I made it to the Top 3, but lost out in the end. Which I wasn't terribly upset about, I was just proud of myself for getting so far in the competition. For some reason that weekend keeps popping into my head. I remember telling Kierra and how excited she was for me. She was always so supportive and happy for others.

Finally, Some Emotion!

Today my mom bought me this figurine. She told me it reminded her of me and Kierra. One of the girls has a purple sash and the other has a pink sash. It plays 'Wind Beneeth My Wings". Which when mom heard that she had to walk away because it was to emotional for her! I love these little angels, it's so perfect.